4dpo and marital strife.

4 dpo as of Sunday

Can you believe it?  I can’t.   I had prepared myself for annovulatory cycle.  Things have been just too strange for words around here.

I spent Friday puttering around here waiting for bosses visit.  She didn’t get here until after 6 which irritated me.  Then she needed to use the potty.  OH JOY!    At least the house wasn’t all boxed up.  I have gone to great lengths for it to appear that it is  still VERY much lived in even tho half our surplus is already in storage OR down in Ruskin.

Somehow we managed to have lots of money for her.  We only have four units empty at the moment.

I rented one as she was leaving.

Her visit was nice and normal.  Like the 30 day notice was never given and hubby would be returning to work as soon as he was given the OK.

We were both in GREAT moods until someone rang the doorbell.

it was the girl who checked in with the boiler maker.   She had wet towels in her hand.   Hubby expressly told her that to change out towels mid week was against policy.  But then  decided to do it anyway. 

 I told him to get the towels out of the vacant unit.  instead  He went right to the laundry room instead where there were no towels clean or folded  .  Opened the door with her peeking over his shoulder.  I don’t like guests snooping around my laundry room.  

I opened the door and reminded him about where I asked him to get towels from.

Once again, he sarcastically snapped  “OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!”  And did what I asked him to do (real simple stuff) in the first place, no doubt  making snide comments to her (about me) on the way.   He does that .  And it is one if my biggest ccomplaints in my marriage.  He is extremely independent and does exactly what he wants to do (say)   He doesn:t  think about how his actions affect me especially when it comes to  relating to customers!  or the extra work it causes me.

Friday  evening ended on a sour note.

We argued thru most of it AND dh brought up every little tiff we have ever had.   He plays dirty which is even more maddening.

He even threatened to leave .   Which IF he ever brings up again I will help him pack.  I swear I will. 

I hate to fight with my mate AND sometimes feel like I’d be better off alone when he gets like this.

 At one point I started to write a note to the girl about following policy and not asking for special favors, especially from hubby who is injured and  not supposed to be lifting a finger around here.   And doesn’t unless he REALLY  wants to.  When he wants to.  Always has to be the good guy.  

Hubby said it was ignorant . Apparently he still thought it was ignorant YESTERDAY  because when I tried to bring the subject up about underminding my  authority in front of guests.  More harsh words were exchanged and there was NO APOLOGY when I really feel like I deserve one.  

Things settled down after that.  And at one point he even asked if I wanted to lie down and cuddle.  Meaning cuddle.   His way to break ice.  BUT what  I want more than anything is for him to admit he was wrong and to get an apology.

He can bitch, moan and complain all he wants but God help me if I stand up for myself.

Anyway so now it is Sunday.  He has promsed to go to Walmart with me and then to Ruskin for a good part of the day.  Hopefully we will have a nice day.  I hope so.