4dpo and marital strife.

4 dpo as of Sunday

Can you believe it?  I can’t.   I had prepared myself for annovulatory cycle.  Things have been just too strange for words around here.

I spent Friday puttering around here waiting for bosses visit.  She didn’t get here until after 6 which irritated me.  Then she needed to use the potty.  OH JOY!    At least the house wasn’t all boxed up.  I have gone to great lengths for it to appear that it is  still VERY much lived in even tho half our surplus is already in storage OR down in Ruskin.

Somehow we managed to have lots of money for her.  We only have four units empty at the moment.

I rented one as she was leaving.

Her visit was nice and normal.  Like the 30 day notice was never given and hubby would be returning to work as soon as he was given the OK.

We were both in GREAT moods until someone rang the doorbell.

it was the girl who checked in with the boiler maker.   She had wet towels in her hand.   Hubby expressly told her that to change out towels mid week was against policy.  But then  decided to do it anyway. 

 I told him to get the towels out of the vacant unit.  instead  He went right to the laundry room instead where there were no towels clean or folded  .  Opened the door with her peeking over his shoulder.  I don’t like guests snooping around my laundry room.  

I opened the door and reminded him about where I asked him to get towels from.

Once again, he sarcastically snapped  “OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!”  And did what I asked him to do (real simple stuff) in the first place, no doubt  making snide comments to her (about me) on the way.   He does that .  And it is one if my biggest ccomplaints in my marriage.  He is extremely independent and does exactly what he wants to do (say)   He doesn:t  think about how his actions affect me especially when it comes to  relating to customers!  or the extra work it causes me.

Friday  evening ended on a sour note.

We argued thru most of it AND dh brought up every little tiff we have ever had.   He plays dirty which is even more maddening.

He even threatened to leave .   Which IF he ever brings up again I will help him pack.  I swear I will. 

I hate to fight with my mate AND sometimes feel like I’d be better off alone when he gets like this.

 At one point I started to write a note to the girl about following policy and not asking for special favors, especially from hubby who is injured and  not supposed to be lifting a finger around here.   And doesn’t unless he REALLY  wants to.  When he wants to.  Always has to be the good guy.  

Hubby said it was ignorant . Apparently he still thought it was ignorant YESTERDAY  because when I tried to bring the subject up about underminding my  authority in front of guests.  More harsh words were exchanged and there was NO APOLOGY when I really feel like I deserve one.  

Things settled down after that.  And at one point he even asked if I wanted to lie down and cuddle.  Meaning cuddle.   His way to break ice.  BUT what  I want more than anything is for him to admit he was wrong and to get an apology.

He can bitch, moan and complain all he wants but God help me if I stand up for myself.

Anyway so now it is Sunday.  He has promsed to go to Walmart with me and then to Ruskin for a good part of the day.  Hopefully we will have a nice day.  I hope so.

 

 

The little things

my hubby can be so endearing .  When he left here yesterday he a change of clothes, his Old Spice Body wash, my pillow, his couch throw  three mountain dews, 3 or 4 propels   and a few other odds and ends.   My survivalist!   Yeah Right?

Refused to take our own money. ” I have their PETTY cash.  ”  Don’t need money!    Boss bought him a pizza last night!  He got up and went to the corner for his coffee this morning .  Later in the day he was hungry again.    Instead of going to the grocery store.  He bought peanut butter and jelly, a loaf of bread, 1/2 gallon of milk at the corner store.  After leaving another  because their  prices weren’t clearly marked.   Spent  $10. ” INSANE! ” He said.

I was slightly amused because I splurged  on a Cuban Style sub.  $6 and was wiping  the crumbs off my desk as he relayed his tale of the most expensive peanut butter and jelly sandwich EVER.

He would have done better on the dollar menu at any one of a dozen fast food joints.

So I spent the rest of the afternoon putting together a care package for him after washing a load of whites to make sure he had enough boxers.  Plate, bowl, fork knife spoon.   A small sauce pan.  One of each can of soup I had in the cabinet,  his life cereal, one banana, his  sugar in a sandwich bag. 

“oh bring my razor.” 

Sure thing baby.  

An extra trip to walmart was out of the question!  “Sooooooooooo you don’t want me to pick up some TV dinners for you?”  “No, we shouldn’t have to buy groceries twice.  They’re gonna pay for this!  “‘

After putting in a full day here I packed all this stuff lovingly,  I loaded it and two restless Jack russel terriers  in the car.  Stopped for gas, drove ten miles on the interstate at rush hour  on a very low tire.  Spent approximately two hours with him in an empty living room while he watched Mash and introduced the dogs to one of the  guests over there.  At about 7:30 I Kissed him good bye and came home again.

I have to laugh because  IT would have been easier and probably alot cheaper had I just gone and spent $30 at Walmart!    Easier yet IF he had just drove a few more blocks down the street to the Walmart in THAT neighborhood in the first place.

Oh and guess who is closing at 6 and coming to dinner tomorrow night?   OR starve!  LOL.  Kidding!  But you see what I mean? 

I love this man so!

Okeedokie, breathe in, breath out! I have a spike at 8dpo

A significant one after nice wave like temps since ovulation.  98.3 to  98.6 overnight.  FF Chartwatch/comparisons found 40 percent ovulatory and 60 percent pregnancy.  WOW!  

  I was actually hoping for a dip but who knows.  Triphasic pehaps.     If I dip now in the next few days it won’t seem like a dip,  just my temps adjusting.  Oh well,  I can test as soon as Saturday or Sunday and will pretty much know for sure before that.  

  I have yet to be able to post an image here since they changed things up at wordpress but for those who want to see  . 

The link is : http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1e3a54

So… We also had a cold front come thru last night.  Since it has warmed up recently , we have been sleeping with a light blanket and our respective indian type throws.  I put my comforter back on the bed last night.  But  really didn’t sleep under it for most of the night.  And it wasn’t ALL that cold this morning.  The house is comfortable anyway without air or heat.

That wouldn’t affect my temp would it?

Of course, lots of other stuff going on too.  Mostly work related stress but hubs and I are confronting a rough patch personally and so have been doing some talking about the probs.

But he has been mentioning my weight here and there .  I am pretty fluffy right now to be sure  And the other night we prayed together ( Ron leading) and asked for help with the struggles.  He closed by saying  “And if it’s not too much trouble, let us be pregnant!”   That was sweet.

Last night, as we settled in we both agreed to try to work harder on personal health.   And he said   ” not just for us but for the little one” and patted my belly.   

 Hmmmmm….   The last time (before I ever got a positive) he seemed to instinctively know I was pregnant.   Does he know something that I don’t?  Wishful thinking, probably but it set off an odd “hopeful”  feeling.

By the way ladies, I know I have some catching up to do on the blogs.   And will as I get time.  Life has been really hectic lately.

Love to ALL tho.  I hope all is going well!    Off to read a few blogs while I can .   HUGS